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I scored kind of bad on the first few tests so now i have to lock in an get an A for every single test 😁

Hi my name is Maile. I live in California but an from Hawaii and I'm in my junior year of high school. I've always been a really smart kid but now that I'm about to go into college I can't choose what I want to do. I have too many interests, which I guess is a good problem to have lol. I want to be a singer and can play practically any instrument I lay my hands on. I'm also an athlete, I race BMX and even got on team USA last year to go to Worlds. Lately I've picked up track and field and really enjoy throwing discus and shot-put, as well as running the 100m. Anyways, this is my first entry on here, so I'll leave it at that. Aloha👋🏼

Recently I have not dedicated enough time to writing in my journal because I keep procrastinating. This is kind of bad because if I put it off for too long, I forget what I want to write about.

I will make an effort to put aside time strictly for journaling from now on.

i have always had trouble figuring out if something i want in my life will help me grow or if it'll end up setting me back even further. i tell myself to be careful and to not get ahead of myself, but some things make a part of me want to hope. i cannot help loving more than is good for me, so i need to set focus on what will benefit me in the long run and stop focusing so much on temporary desires.

because of this, i've recently been trying to be more mindful of my feelings. logging down how i felt every day helps in showing any patterns or fluctuations from something specific i'm looking for. it's hard to say that i've seen any improvement on separating my wants from my needs. but i'm hoping that with time, i'll learn to start thinking with my head rather than my heart.

my goal is to eventually separate myself from things that i know will weigh me down, no matter how hard it is to let go. it's going to be long and difficult, but i hope it will work out for me in the end. i pray that if it was meant for me, it will come back when the time is right, but i know that time is not now. the grief might end some day, but the love never will

the plan is to focus on myself for now, delve into new hobbies and stay goal-oriented. i picked up cooking and got back into gardening a while ago, so now i want to set a mini goal of reading at least one book every two weeks. i think if i make it manageable, i'll come to it easier. getting back into the church life has also helped me open my mind up more and meet new people with all kinds of different insights on life, so i want to attend more frequently if i can. having a more routine life might help with how disorganized my mind feels

I am currently a new graduate from UC Berkeley and I've focused the last 3 years towards academics... but not my health. I want to really focus on eating well and working out consistently. Hoping to gain some healthy weight and gain more muscle within the next couple of years!